"The Tail of the enormous POUT"

I felt like sulking today *stop shaking your heads and grinning..I do not sulk everyday..atleast not openly!* Yeah..where was I..so I was sulking today about something very very narcistic..moping to myself about myself..and the way I am..

I hate waiting for people. Rather let me put it this way, I detest people making me wait. If I can be on time so can you. If I can estimate I will be delayed and inform the poor other(s) standing shamefully in a corner of a crowded mall, so can you!

I hate not having a plan. I plan my day, my week, my weekends, my holidays. I think I even go to the extent of planning how to plan! And when things don't go according to plan, I drive myself nuts with irritation. Talk about being a control freak eh!

I hate people not responding. Acknowledging/replying to messages, emails, cute gestures, and even looks/glances. Hey if I spent some time to cook up that little exciting message for you, least you can do it say "ok" or smile..it's worth a lot..trust me…(Note to self-refresh my stock of double chocolate brownie points, in case someone decides to action after reading this!)

I hate not having winter to utilise all my winter clothes. More than the clothes I want to experience a season where I can look huge and blame it on all the layers of padding..;)

I hate that my eyes close all the way when I smile..ok not smile, grin..nopes actually laugh..which is almost all the time. I laugh when things are funny, and when they're remotely funny. What else can I say but that I am easily amused! I am a stand up comedians [a bad one] dream come true! but caught on camera..I look a laughing eyeless ostrich [without the height ofcourse], and it isn't pretty..

I hate someone asking me a question which I can't answer. Simply because it must be one which I thought about, didn't get an answer, and ignored it flat. And someone else picking up on that is purely eerie..

I hate having on of those days. Those days should essentially be read as fat day, sleepy day, bad hair day, missed-gym-in-the-morning day, don't-know-what-to-wear-to-work day, leave-me-alone day, doesn't-anyone-love-me day..one of these each day of the week and I'm pretty much occupied everyday!

I hate that I don't listen..simply because everyone tells me I don't..*gulp*. I can see people pointing their finger at me this very moment and saying "I told you so"..

I hate being blamed for something I didn't do. Well, more so because most of the time I realise I did do it in the end[once walked through the facts] and that upsets my perfectly stacked ego..it's directly related to my point above..If I listen, understand, not be in a hurry, no mistakes will be made, no blames will be flung and life will be smooth...now if I could just co-ordinate the thought-to-action process inside myself..

I hate being uncomfortable. I rather be alone [and sulk I guess!] than be in company that disinterests me. I thrive on talking. If I can't talk to someone they're history. If I have to talk to a wall (those referenced here know who they are:p) I bring 'em down. If they don't LET me talk, they're dead! And if I find myself with people where I don't know WHAT to talk.. it's goodbye..ofcourse I can cook up gibberish [I'm great at that as well], but it doesn't feel good being the background noise..

Well that is pretty much it. For now. Don't misunderstand me, I'm not a '10 things I hate about myself' gal, there are more..many more maybe, I just need more reflect-then-fret-and-shout-days to discover them..

And an obnoxiously self centered statement to wind this up..

..I 'hate' that I'm not perfect..but 'I'd love' to be...

Time to turn off the pout and turn on the smile..