"Custom-made"

I used to be shy,
I couldn't admit,
I used to feel dry.

And then I started thinking..

I did grow
But it seemed slow,
At times I ran around
The corner to find myself bound
By ideas and compulsions
Determination and emotions.

And then I started talking..

Not a stop in view
Creating a story new,
Mislead in many a way
When I drove a loss every day
Hope that someday I will entertain
Without agenda and happiness vain.

And then I started dreaming..

Dreams of me
With others in it for free,
Once I was startled with fears
From slumber deep and tears
It was the past and future
And the present was the only ally dear.

And then I stated winning..

Luck overtook
Every page of the unfortunate book,
When I looked outside
Towards that which I hadn't tried
I finally jumped the fence
Into the face of confidence.

And then I started loving..

In my own capacity
Unconditional, yet witty
I was hurt
By words sharp and actions curt
But with the change of weather
I could think,talk,dream,win & love together.

I feel full, untied,
I have a vision,
I survived.