"Up against a wall"

He walked into the door, the man I thought I loved much
And sat by my bedside, stroking my hair with his warm touch.
I knew it was time to make a decision, a decision unfair, untrue
I knew his affection was real, yet it was meant to woo.

I lay still, pretending not to understand the silence I knew so well
He looked at me with water in his eyes, eyes that to me were once swell.
I avoided the glare, I knew I would lose the battle I had considered won
I went through my options, options that were none.

Glimspes of the past few months pierced my heart, my aching soul
I thought if I kept sleeping the pain would go away, disappear as a whole.
But it was all true, she was gone and he had taken a stand, no questions asked
Sitting by my bedside I felt the tears, and I knew my answers won't last.

I turned away, he walked out of the room silently closing the door behind him
He took with him his expectations and support, and I knew I couldn't win.
So I closed my eyes again, attempted to dress the wounds that didn't show
And I prayed with my heart and soul to her, so she would never let go.

I pictured her sitting beside me, radiating feelings, warm and fragrant always
It helped me gather my thoughts and wisdom, which played a cat & mouse game.
Wiping my tears, I crept out of bed, and though I had no answers on the wall
I knew I couldn't pick between love & love, I was weak, so I decided not to pick at all.

"Choices"

I stare at a piece of driftwood
Floating, his mind & water in sync,
Until the fork in the river
Decides his fate without a blink.

He was no drinker
Who could make or break his own,
Yet the watery bed in command
Took his life for loan.

Choices we all have
Choices we don't know
Choices we choose
And those we let go...

The stream later widened
Into an ocean crystal blue,
But a patch of green devil
Held him behind like glue.

He was not a cheater
Who left his wife sore,
Yet at the turn of opportunity
His luck went ashore.

Choices we all have
Choices we don't know
Choices we choose
And those we let go...

He struggled with the enemy
Attempting to break through,
But the forces of nature mighty
Broke his life in two.

He was no coward
Who wrongly accused a friend,
He was only drifting
When others decided his end.

Choices we all have
Choices we don't know
Choices we choose
And those we let go...