"Ever since that day"

This one's for Mum, wherever you are...

I woke up, yearning your stare
Your side of the bed, the good side,
Empty, ruffled and bare.

I woke up, believing it was yesterday
It was no dream, no dare,
Your welcoming face had faded away.

I woke up, smelling my childhood
It ran past me, took you along,
And I cried as much as I could.

I woke up, feeling you surround me
Incomplete, without voice or form,
With a blink it became 'I' from 'We'.

I woke up, only to go back to bed
Life looked unreal, untrue,
And there was nothing left to be said...