I got a lot of comments lately ,written,verbal and sing-along-aong types, asking me why I write about everything and anything, from mundane already-discussed-and-now-closed-for-eternity topics to exciting holidays, dance classes, work life, love life, my daily schedule and anything and everything that can be formed into a sentence and put into the form of prose or poetry..
Well when I got down to think about it..I felt I couldn't explain myself..must you always have a reason to write?
Apart from being a release, a let-away for pent up emotions,thoughts[which are millions and trillions in number],a way to keep in touch with the world specially my remote friends, it also happens to be a way of life for me..it comes rather naturally to me to be able to tune my daily life into words which can be hummed or read in a way other than a regular 'I did this today'...
...surprisingly enough [ and I know many of you will laugh your guts out when you read this] it also happens to be an alternative to talking for me..not that I don't have enough conversations to eat peoples head offs, whether at work or home, with friends of colleagues, but this is a conversation which has more verbal energy spent than physical [since those who know me realise how animated I am!]..it a conversation for which once in my lifetime I think before I talk..[at least I think I do]..a conversation in which I do happen to breathe in between, take sips of coffee or have my lunch without either of them turning cold enough to give a cucumber competition!
I can go days without food or water..but a conversation is the utmost part of my diet..my routine..and when there isn't a soul around to bear with my non-stop banter, I take to the pen and paper..my solace in almost every situation..companions for life..companions true and sincere [since they can't talk back and ask me to shutup], companions who never judge me..but only absorb..every word, every feeling and every thought that there is to absorb when I am with them...
Writing has always been fun..and I write for myself and not for others..this isn't a disclaimer for what I do..not even a justification or explanation for it..it's just another bit of the nonsensical writing..which you may or may not chose to read..I wrote it anyway...or else I would have been walking around like a headless chicken who just lost her mind of thoughts...
..thrilled and excited, musical and calm, blank yet expressive, quiet yet so much has been said..this has been the best conversation of them all..
..thanks for listening...
9 comments:
clap clap shuchi... ! you ve caught on to all of us.. this is why we said... shuchi .. start a blog
"Writing has always been fun..and I write for myself and not for others.."
I strongly disagree. Everyone starts off blogging for themselves but at some surreal, subconscious level they end up doing it for others.
This is entirely with reference to your posts on this blog...
Surreality: If you think about it, the line between doing something for yourself and doing something for others is an evanescent one. What do you do for yourself? Isn't it all eventually, at some subconscious level for others... our mere existence is after all a function of others. We exist because others can percieve us---would you still really exist if you were in isolation? How would that be any different from being in a dream?
Shu: Nice post.
Surreal reality: Totally agree with you!
Anonymous: you've got it the other way around. Everything we do for others, subconsciously we are doing for ourselves! In everything we do... we are looking for some sort of gain/ approval/appreciation/ reward/compliment directed to ourselves. No one does anything purely for the sake of doing it for someone. In return we want that little thank you note, we want that acknowledging smile, that pat on the back, that little dinner treat…
We might accept criticism gracefully but inside it hurts us and we always always want to please someone.. Need not be everyone.. But there is always someone behind whatever you do..We love attention.. You wouldn't continue blogging if no one bothered reading would you ? You would like to think you would.. but it doesnt work that way I don’t think I could think of a single person that would do something purely to do it for them…
Although to be fair, I think what shuchi was trying to get across wasn’t if she is writing to please someone or anything like that… it was simply that she needed an outlet for her thoughts.. if you know her like I do.. She’s a scatter-brain, a confused, giggly, mad, crazy, chatty, moody, … to put it in one word… young woman! (And I mean in it the best possible way ;)) … and that not everything she thinks/writes/talks about makes sense or has to make sense and are just like with most of us... random passing thoughts.. which she thought she'd share..
Wow guys...thats a lot of good stuff here
Thanks surreal..i know we had this conversation before...not entirely in a sober sense bt yeah was a dicussion...I agree..I don't always doit to please myself..but I write coz I and only I enjoy doing it..and in the process if someone gets entertained and pleased..hey why not!:) so you got a bit of point there....but the underlying reason is definitely coz I enjoy it..
Anon..thanks for the lovely back up...you shud leave u give such compliments...it makes them even more special:) I do have a hunch who u are tho..hmm not many people call me that...
And my dear zipadeee...thats the biggest comment I've seen from you! you seem to be really getting into the blogging world...yes what you said is partly true...but i disagree with some bits...like..errrrr..the scatter brain..hehe...wait till i see u!!:P lol...anyway was a good read and thanks for all your suggestions etc guys..
On a closing note..I do agree that most of us do look for appreciation in everything we do..have a selfish motive behidn every deed..but then there are things which can be purlely done to for others...they're called compromises...and they're done all the time...I do them and so do you...
..there is no harm to want to do something for others if it pleases them...thats what all worldy relationships are for...to please and be pleased...
...see you guys are commenting on my blog to keep me happy that someone is reading my posts..and trust me peeps you're doing a brilliant jobs outta it...cheers!!
Not all who praise your posts are truly correct or well wishers, and vice versa.
-Jules
a compromise is not done..its made :p
Anonymous : That sounds ominously close to Zen philosophy. If it were true, the would would be a much better.. altruistic place... as for how is reality different from a dream? I quote my lord and master Poe...
Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.
PS: don't look for correlation, I just love quoting the guy :)
would would be much indeed!!! :P
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